I’ve never really been a subscriber to the entire Wheel of the Year calendar, even back when I was a Neo-Wiccan. So I’m finally sitting down and making a list of important Holidays and dates for me. It’s something that I feel like I am going to add to over the years, but for now I am happy with it. It’s interesting that I don’t have anything from the Winter solstice to Walpurgisnacht (April 30th) but that is my slow period. But here are the days that (currently) make up my calendar.
- Walpurgisnacht (April 30)
- Beltane (May 1)
- Mabon (Autumnal Equinox)
- Samhain (October 31)
- Yule (Winter Solstice)
Death work, specifically crossing over the dead, has been on my mind a lot lately. I had stopped doing it for awhile as it was a lot of stress and I knew I needed to sort some things out. Now I’ve gotten back into it, and I’ve got to say I’m pretty darn happy to be doing it again.
Way back when I first “officially” began my life as a spirit worker I was crossing over dead people. It was intense but I felt obligated to help the people that came to me. It got to be too much though. I was new at spirit work. I didn’t know a lot of discernment or even how to properly defend myself. I was also going through a good amount of personal stuff. So the dead slowly stopped coming to me for help.
That was about a year ago. In the past few months I’d been really feeling the pull to get back into death work. I’ve learned a lot in the past year. So about two weeks ago I just kinda sat down and declared myself back open for business.
It was like I never left, honestly. Moving people on just feels natural. There’s also more distance to it now. I’m able to distance myself and still help people cross over. I’m not experiencing the deaths as intensely, which is part of what drove me away from death work before. I’ve also taken out a lot of my personal bias in crossing people. It isn’t really my place to judge, just to get them from here to wherever they need to go.
Over my spring break, which was around mid-March, something happened that essentially kick-started a new phase of my spiritual journey. Although I’ve been rather busy since then with school and preparing for finals, I’ve been reflecting a lot on what this new phase means to me. For one, it’s an affirmation of what I have already been doing and that I am where I need to be. The other half is a need to return to where I began my spiritual journey. I’ve been making peace with old wounds but I’ve also had the strong urge to return to old books and re-read them now that I understand source criticism and bias. I have also been meaning to get back into death work, the thing that started my spirit work (and I will most likely talk about in more detail later) but has since fallen to the wayside. It seems that things tend to balance out that way. There’s so much new in front of me, but I also get to see my past with fresh eyes. Only time will tell what’s coming and who knows where I will be in a few months. Regardless, I’m looking forward to it and I’m sure it will be its own adventure.
I tried to make this blog about a year ago. I was like a post and a half in and then put it down. Coming back, I wasn’t happy with what I had and decided to start fresh and just delete what was already there. Now I think it’ll be a lot more to the point and a lot cleaner.
I guess I should clarify that this is a personal blog to an extent. It will be me talking about my experience as a spirit worker, a witch, a pagan, and likely a bunch of other stuff. Not everything that has ever happened to me is going to be here. Not everything is going to have all of the details. Part of it may even be me just venting to the void. It is what it is, though and I’m happy with that.